Yippie Doo Da!

I just installed Windows 7 replacing my XP a few days ago..

And for now, I think it’s going great for my old laptop. And I sudah terdelete most of my draft post in here. So, this is the fresh new one.

I just finished install the windows live writer and this is my first post..

Haah.. The class will start on Monday and I already got a lot in my hands right now. Class schedule, Curtin Rugby Club events and etc.

Just got back from dinner actually.. I slept the whole day today. Very the mengantuk punya..

Haha.

Now cannot sleep  >_<’’

Really need to set my biological clock back to going-to-class-hope-not-skipping-any mode..

Fuh. That’s all now..

*Glup glup glup*

I am back!

Hola mamasitas. Como es tas?

As you probably knew, I was back in Miri. And yes I am! I’m in Miri now! I was so excited. After leaving this god-forsaken place for 2 months, suddenly I missed being here.

Sedut was supposed to fetch me from the airport but to my shocked, they were going on a holiday in KK.. and by they, I mean Abu, Tompok, Fuad and him.

But, good things come out from this loneliness. I got a hotel room for my own comfort! Hell yeah.. I didn’t stutter.. I got a hotel room for myself! And plus… FOR FREEEEE!!!! I OWNED THESE BITCHES! Muahaha.. Pardon my french..

Since, they will only going to come back to Miri on Tuesday, which is later today, I still living alone, for two days now, in a nice hotel with swimming pool and gym. See how spoilt I am? :P

And after a minute Jengga stepping inside his own house, he kept bitching about it in his twitters. Haha!

Meanwhile, you guys may seem to have this idea of me leaving Jengga alone in his own house. Well, I tried to invite him to stay with me for a night or two in this some sort of ‘heavenly’ crib but he planned to stay there anyway, being cuddled with lizards, cockroaches, tonnes of boxes and WITH NO INTERNET CONNECTION! How suck his life right now, I cannot ever imagine. Can you ever imagine life of Jengga without his internet connection? It’s like having a babysitter, with no baby to babysit. It is just ri…di..cu..lous..

Of course, being me with such a delicious sarcasm and annoying sense of humour, I kept tormenting him with messages, saying I was going to the swimming pool, I went to the supermarket, I got internet connection, I have a better place to stay than him, all kind of annoying messages that are really…annoying…

But hey, he said he needed to study and with no internet connection and living in that remote area, I pretty sure that he passes his supplementary exam. Hee.. Now come to think of it, it’s good leaving him to go back to his own place. :P

Me? I have my own jolly good time.. Internet is fast enough to watch all the series I want, watching football on ESPN.. It’s allll… goooooooood..

I’ve been on Castle marathon and watched some movies from my laptop, only God knows how much time I already wasted living like this. Heh.. If only I know what valuable thing that I can do to kill this awful long time. Still, no mood for studying yet. I just hoped that I can turn myself back on for studying mode. Not that I have study mode to turn back on nowadays.

I love living by myself and sometimes it’s good too when you have somebody to goof around with, keep me updated with stuff.

Living in this hotel, alone by myself really help me observe things from afar. And one thing I know for sure. Miri citizen really knows how to celebrate during the festive season! Give it up to MIRI………….PEOPLLLEEEEEEE!! They really having their own good times, closing almost all stores in around town, for quite a long time too.. 3 days, 4 days.. and some even for  a week! How cool is that? Do they really make that lots of money they can close the store for a week?

I’ve been roaming around the Boulevard hypermarket inside the Imperial, and all I can see are tigers, red banners, chinese writings, some stupid arcs they put everywhere, the lion dance’s head.. all sorts of festive stuff.. It’s really cool and shyte, but why do you have to put all the same stuff at the same spot all around the mall?!

Errh.. I’m hungry now.. Gonna cook something up for myself!

Till then,

Hasta la vista, ebelibadi!

And before I forget..

GONG XI FA CAI

AND

HAVE A GREAT SHORT HOLIDAY!

*tongtorong toceng.. tongtorong toceng… toceng.. toceng.. toceng…*

(and yes, if you’re dirty, you know what it means.. but in case you are not, it’s a chinese ambience you’ll hear every time there’s a lion dance.. hehe.)

An Unpretentious Requisition

It’s just plain hard to live and still depends on something or someone.

I am a really active guy, who loves adventurous, extreme and sometimes dangerous stuff.

I am the kind of guy who takes thing to an outrageous level.

I love challenge. Challenge keeps me alive.

However, I know that someday I can’t be as active as before.

But until that time comes, I really want to enjoy my life to the fullest. 

And time will come where I will need full support from all of you. 

Until then, please don’t babysit me, keep asking me whether “I’m okay” every step of the way. 

I know that I should be grateful having you guys in my life, taking care of me. 

And sometime it is just too much.

So please, let me be. Let me enjoy my life.

But I promise you,  

I will taking care of my own health. 

I won’t put my own condition at risk. 

I won’t do stuff that I know will harm me. 

Pray for my safety though.  

Fin

Life As A Guitarist.

Hurmm.. Where will I start this post.. cos it happened long time ago.. blamed myself for procrastinate..

Oh.. During exam week, I sorta borrowed a guitar from a friend since dia x main that guitar.. When I got this guitar, I was really really happy cos ye la.. lebey kurg my first guitar that I SORT OF ‘owned’.. ;p but I realized the first moment i held this guitar… the first string gone! T_T

How the hell am I going to practice if the 1st string hilang.. but because of the passion *cewah* towards music and guitar.. I took the guitar nonetheless.. right after I got home.. baru nak belai2 the guitar.. suddenly one of the gears tercabut.. waaa… the screw already gone to God-knows-where n I dont have any thing to stick it back in.. So for a few days until the end of the exam.. I didn’t use the guitar at all coz I used syabil’s guitar. Mmg terabai dat guitar but I’m sure the guitar dah biasa dah.. mcm kat rumah dulu-dulu.. *kuikuikui ;p*

So, I’ve put repairing the guitar as my top priorities after the exam coz after exam, there’s nothing that can be done in miri except for makan, tido, and main game.. lol..

However, I didn’t start repairing the guitar right after exam coz I’ve been really lazy to go to Imperial to buy the stuff. This laziness continued until the beach touch rugby tournament where I was planning to stay at the hotel. Even though penat giler, the mission still go on.. lol.. buying all the stuff at the music store which I forgot the name.. Apparently.. the store xde skru that match the gear and I ended up buying the strings and the whole tuning keys.

After I bought the whole stuff, we went to eat at McDonald with Tompoq, Chong, Sedut and a couple of new frens which are frens of Sedut and Tompoq.. if I can still recall, they’re Ijoi and err…. errr…. tak ingat.. huhuhu.. (after 2 months of delaying this post…) Oh yes!! Boyan! :D

So.. I explained to yu how to repair a guitar.. err.. sort of.. ^_^

INFO: To know more about the guitar parts and components, click here.

1. Pull out old strings

In case you didn’t notice, this is the most crucial part. You want to know why?

Coz if you don’t pull out the old strings, how can you put a new one? LOL..

The beginning of guitar-repairing madness (I already started pulling out one string before I realized that I want to blog bout it.. :P)

When you pull out the strings, do it very slowly as it may cut your fingers. Like seriously, pedih weh!

DON’T THROW THE STRINGS AWAY! Keep it somewhere, in case of emergency. Mana la tau after this one string putus and you really need it quick, you can use the old string.. Clever kan? :P

2. Clean the exterior (optional)

Yes ladies and gentlemen, please remove all the dust from your guitar.

Sometimes you eat fried chicken while you playing guitar, don’t ask me how but the oily hands will make your guitar less pretty. And if your guitar has been devoured alive by the very dusty environment (like this guitar for instance), find a clean or old cloth and wipe the dust off.

Uggh.. Filthy.. (Before)

If you are really particular about cleanliness and want to polish it with some kind of polishing product on the market so that it will be shinier and looks glossy, go ahead. It’s your guitar, your choice.. :)

Ooh.. Its cleaner and shinier look (After)

*ignore the surrounding.. please focus on the guitar*

But if your guitar is already clean and got no stain or nasty fingerprints, you can skip this part and move on to the third step.

3. Check for repairing kit

Since I will replace the old tuning keys on the headstock and the six strings this is what you need:

• New tuning keys
• Screwdriver
• Six strings
• and willingness to replace and repair :P

Alice professional guitar strings :P

I don’t know much about which guitar strings you should buy coz different types of guitar uses different strings. Ask the taukeh at the shop because that was what I did.. Hehe..

4. Replace the tuning keys

Use your screwdriver, and remove all the screws that hold the old tuning keys.

Remove the tuning keys and just replace it. Easy. Kacang.

Make sure you bought the tuning keys that fit with your guitar though. :P

5. Fit in the six strings

Put in your first string. If you did not know which one is the first string, it is the thinnest one that is placed at the bottom of the line, if you are a right-handed guitarist.

To guide you in order to put the correct strings into the correct tuning keys at the headstock, look at the picture below.

See? The first string goes to the bottom right tuning key.

2nd string – middle right

3rd string – top right

4th string – top left

5th string – middle left

6th string – bottom left

As a rule of thumb, when you put all your strings into the tuning keys, make sure that you turned the tuner in the same direction when you want to tune it. (i.e. loosen strings – all clockwise direction, tighten strings – all counterclockwise direction).

They are two ways of inserting the guitar strings into the tuning keys.

1. Pull all the strings into the keys and turn the gears

2. Put just the end of the string and turn the gears.

Both ways have their pros and cons.

a. Not wasting time, easier to tune because you only have to turn the gear a bit but waste of strings.

b. Wasting time, because you start to turn the gear from the tip of the string, harder to tune but more accurate.

Click the picture if you cannot see the label :P

6. Tune the guitar and rock on!

You can use tuner to tune your guitar or if you are a more-experienced guitarists, use your own method or method that have been descended by your guitar gurus.

Repaired and new-looking guitar.. weehuu~

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I so wanna buy a guitar right now.

I don’t know whether this is useful for you guys or you have a better way of repairing your own guitar. This is my method that has been shared and taught by my friend and it’s really useful for me.

Tuan gitar, ampun kerana mengutuk gitar anda but I just can’t help it.. Muahaha :P

If you have any questions, or better solution, feel free to drop a comment or two :P

Before we end, who want to learn Tears in Heaven? Angkat tangan! :P

And lastly to all guitarists out there no matter where you are, tgh jamming ke, atas pentas ke, tepi longkang melayan syahdu ke, atas katil ke…

KEEP ON ROCKING, BEBEH!! Woohoo!!

\m/

Speak of The Truth

BEWARE: NOT FOR THE FAINT-HEARTED AND DO NOT WANT TO BE IN THE MIDDLE OF THIS.

“Life is built from pieces of memories combined into a whole that tells you of who you are in the past and present and what you will be in the future”

There’s always a storybook which ends with ‘happily ever after’ and yet I’ve never find such ending.

Well, this is not a story, neither it’s a speak of desperation. It is what comes through my mind right about now and few weeks before this and I think I need to speak up since it really gives me a heavy burden.

I don’t expect you to agree, neither expect you to tell the same story to others. I just want you to understand. It’s just my opinion, you might have different perspective but to each their own.

I wanted and tried to talk to you about this in person but you’ve mentioned that you don’t like to talk about any of this face to face since it will make you feel really uncomfortable. I understand that completely. It may turn things for the worse and I really don’t want that. So, if I talk to yu, I will say exactly the same thing here.

In case you hadn’t notice which I think you are, I still adore you. I still like you like I did when we really close together before. And I don’t think I’ll ever stop liking you.

I can’t seem quite to get you out of my head everyday. I don’t know why. Every time I feel like you did something not nice to me, I really want to put angry words and say bad things about you in my heart but I just unable to do that. Someone told me “I loved too much” but heck no. I don’t think I ever encounter love before. Bryan Adams once said (not really say coz it’s more in his lyrics); you will know that you really love a woman

“When you find yourself lying helpless in her arms”

“When you can see your unborn children in her eyes”

I know that it’s only a metaphor but I never ever feel like that or even close to that metaphor.

You bring out the best in me. I’m such a dull and boring person before and I’m not friendly with people, even our batch-mate and I don’t think I’ll ever be close to them if not because of you. I learnt how to socialize because I envy you. You have such good friends by your side and I also wanted to feel the same way you do, being loved not just from your family but also your friends.

Sometimes just being with you really made my day. Your smile, your childish act, your cute gesture and jumping like a hyper-active kid with endless supply of sugar, your chuckles when I made a fool out of myself. Your story also made me wanted to know more about you, like I want to know the whole of you, coz I know that someday things will change and I won’t get chance like this anymore, although I hope it didn’t change at all.

It’s funny how our relationship grew based predominately on making jokes and laughed about other peoples’ misery and annoyances. Gosh.. I really missed those times. We sometime talked about ourselves, our interests but mostly we talked about other people.

Our relationship really blossomed when we didn’t sleep for the whole night talking about random stuff, about yu, about me, about everything. That time, I felt like we were meant to be, although I know that’s sound so corny. With the paparazzi lagi.. Haha macam famous celebs la pulak rasanya.. :P

I know you are not really can remember everything that we did, and that’s where I came in, to fill your so-called flaw. :) although sometimes it’s just a little thing and I recalled the memory to you, and you don’t remember, it’s kinda make me want to strangle you (in a good way). But I cherished every moment because, I don’t know, it’s my curse really, to be able to remember all those things.. >_<

We really pissed people off especially Shannon, Abby, Mea and Putri for the stupid things we did around 10 months ago (approximately). We are labeled as people who didn’t appreciate relationships. Haha!

Yes, sometimes I can be such an annoying person to you, but it’s just who I am. I annoyed you before and still annoy you now. Only the difference is because you don’t know me well before and now you seem to know me well enough.

And then came two incidents that I think change the course of our relationship. The “thank you for everything” and “where’s my handout, I want to staple it all together” incidents. You really scared the shit out of me. Fuhh.. I don’t want to elaborate on that, I still keep what we chatted though. It really was the first time I was really scared that our friendship will end just like that.

Heh.. Yeah, I regretted that I always took things too far and made you mad at me over little things and you know I don’t really mean that. Comparing me with your shitty ex-bf really made me sad. Coz I don’t want to be label as that in your life at all but I didn’t realize that it turned out that way. I wanted to be at least the better thing that ever happened in your life, if not the best. Am I one of them? Only you can decide.

When we were just getting to know each other, I made three promises to myself when I share any moments with you, difficult times or the fun ones.

1. That I will always make your day, try to lift your spirits up and always support you even when you are feeling down.
2. I will help you in any way I can, and even for the littlest things.
3. I will never make you cry.

I am really happy about the birthday surprise to you coz I think that’s the only plan that was really a successful one. And you even not expecting it. It really made both of our day.

I know that you are not a child anymore, and don’t want help all the time. You want to live independently. I agreed and happy to be next to a girl and that don’t need support and helpless all the time. But sometimes macam kesian la pulak tgk yu like struggling eventho you mentioned you don’t want my help.

When you cried in front of me, I know that I took things too far. I’ve made a terrible mistake to you and also broke my own promises to myself. I really feel like an idiot at that time. I know that you just had a tough time arguing with someone and then I acted like a moron after that. When you suddenly said, “Aku balik la kalau camni” and then you started to sob, it’s like a stab to my heart. I hate woman’s crying in front of me and lagi-lagi because of me.

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Although I know that I really am not good with words, I just want to apologize, from the bottom or my heart, not only for this incident but for all the wrong doings that I did to hurt you and yes, sometime I meant what I did but I did all of these because I wanted to keep our relationship strong in my sense.

I admit that sometimes I can be really selfish, ignorant, arrogant and etc. but I still improving myself in becoming a better human being, a real man not just to you, but to everyone.

I really don’t expect you to change, let alone for me coz that will be an idiot thing to do. Yes, people change everyday, for better or for worse.

And I admit, it’s a real pain to let you go, but I have coz I don’t want to carry the burden of pain, anger to myself and despair all the way until the end of my university life.

I know that you have changed. It is obvious and I saw the change when we were really close. You are not who you was before and really, it is fine by me.

What I want is just a second valuable chance for me to prove that I am worth to have a close friend like you. And I know that this is too much to ask.

A friend once said to me,

“No bf/gf like their gf/bf close to another person of the opposite sex”

Come to think of it, it is partly true in, some sort of understanding. If you really delve into your personal love life, I think you can find this statement is true, in the short-term or long-term run of the relationship. I’ve experienced it before and yeah, who says I won’t experience it again.. Heh..

Although this post will again, may cause another major change in my life and our relationship as friend, I am willing to take that chance coz sooner or later, I am just gonna let this thing out..

“Anyhow, we surely had fun while it lasts…. =)”