How? How?

Can anyone tell me how to prevent anonymous from commenting my blog with advertisements.. Getting annoyed with them by the day..

 

Merci beaucoup

Sleep

*WARNING* This is not what you students should do before the exam!

I got a paper today that’s just finished about 1 hour ago. What I’m gonna tell is not the exam part, but the pre-exam part, the preparation.

I wanted to sleep last night because the paper is at 6.45pm but I just can’t. So, I kept reading and reading all my materials available until I felt a bit groggy and sleepy around 11-12pm this afternoon. I set my alarm to 3.30pm so that I can do my last revision.

However, well you guessed it, the end was not the one I expected. I suddenly felt a need to wake up and saw my room was dark. I was like, “OMG, what time is it?” and it was 6. I was really shocked at that moment and my brain messed with me by saying the exam was at 6!

I was in a hurry and I wished that there is car at the moment, but yes, there’s no car available. My last resort was to ask the security guard to take me to campus. I guessed the world was messing with me again when the main door was locked twice. I was annoyed and my heart beat fast. Is not that I worried about making there in time, but what I was worried is after all my rushing to go to campus, I will be blur as hell in the exam room. That is like ‘an ultimate damnation’ for students who blank during examination.

One positive and weird moment occurred to me was as I was hurrying up to the guard post, I saw Ammar walking gracefully and filled with joy (I know it’s an exaggeration but what the hell) and I was like, “WTF~?!”

I felt there was like a shot in my brain that told me this.

“You stupid *beep*hole, you’ve been tricked! Your exam is at 6.45pm, dumb*beep*. Can’t believe you fell for that trick. Lalalalalala~”

Yeah, it sounded weird but that’s what happened.

Thank God there was bus at 6pm. I felt happy and relieved at the same time.

Oh, how about exam? It was fantastic. Haha.

For me, I guess.

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However, I may and have been posting some racy photos which may be offended to you but not to me. So, if you still wanna follow, go ahead. YOU’VE BEEN WARNED. *devil’s grin*

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Don’t Stare (via Tumblr)

15 October 2010, 8.30-ish pm.

I was waiting at Villa bus stop with 4 Chinese students; 2 girls and 2 boys. They were having fun, singing and dancing. Then came a local guy, skinny with a sling bag, sat at the bus stop as well.

I don’t know what they were doing but if I have to guess, they were staring at the local guy. The guy was all frustrated and he suddenly yelled at them:

“Kamu apa pandang2?! Jangan main2 sama saya. Kamu orang Cina, saya dari Sarawak! Kalau berani sini laa.”

He continued ranting and rambling. There was silence and one of them apologized for staring. He looked calm and came at them and offered a handshake. And off he went! They were relieved and continue talking.

Now the best part!

Then suddenly, he came back and from other side of the road he yelled to the Chinese guys and girls. His friend who was with him now kept tugging and pulling him and begged him not to go to the bus stop and create a scene.

But he managed to resist the pulling and arrived at the bus stop anyway. Upon arrival, he yelled to one of the Chinese dude while throwing his fist:

“Hoi! Kamu ingat saya takut ka?! Kalau kamu mau gaduh, sini la kita book dewan!!”

Haha. Why do we have to book a hall to fight is beyond me. But what funny was all the Chinese jumped from their seat and ran back to Villa gate. Luckily the dudes from the 1989 Burger (promote!) came and saved the day.

The friend of the local guy shoved him away and wanted to apologize to the Chinese and the burger stall dudes. He told us that he was coming from village and he’s new in Miri. He wanted to go back to his village but he came for drink with his friend instead and was drunk at that time.

I was laughing my ass off when they were jumping and running. I was there the whole time and not moving an inch from my seat. Haha! They were scared to death.

Moral of the story: Don’t stare at drunk people. They can be aggressive.

This incident really made my day. Haha!

Malay version:

4 Cina, 1 Local.

Cina usha2 local. Local marah. Cina mintak maaf. Local terima maaf. Local datang balik. Cina lompat dan lari. Brader 1989 Burger (promote lagi) dtg selamatkan diorang. Kawan local pergi mintak maaf dgn brader dan Cina. Local datang dari kampung dan mabuk rupanya.

Haha!

Moral: Jangan usha2 orang mabuk.

What I always do..

The Reality

Viva La Espana!

Spain crowned World Champion after becoming European Champion last two years.

Awesome? Indeed.

 

What I’ve Learn

 

1. D’Masiv – Cinta Ini Membunuhku
2. The Rembrandts – I’ll Be There For You
3. May – Jemu
4. May – Sinar
5. May – Sendiri
6. Amuk – Aku Mahu Pulang
7. Pearl Jam – Last Kiss
8. Secondhand Serenade – Fall For You
9. White Lion – When The Children Cry
10. Spider – Mungkinkah Terjadi
11. Deep Blue Something – Breakfast At Tiffany’s
12. Goo Goo Dolls – Iris
13. Oasis – Don’t Look Back In Anger
14. Paramore – The Only Exception
15. The Cranberries – Animal Instinct
16. Train – Drop of Jupiter
17. Howie Day – Collide
18. Sum 41 – Pieces
19. Aris Ariwatan – Cinta Tak Kenal Siapa

I’m still in the process of learning how to pluck. Want to play Falling Slowly so badly..

Decision? I decide…

I have decided!

I want to play rugby and I will work hard to achieve it!

Curtin 7’s better watch out!

Ho yeah!

*sleep*

I Support!

Jamie Oliver, I support you!

If any of you want to see the show and be inspired, you can ask me.

It is really inspiring, touching and gives you hope that there is still a good person that can change the world, well for Jamie, in the nutritious and health aspect.

The show is about Jamie Oliver, the famous chef in U.K. mainly known as ‘The Naked Chef’ take on city of Huntington, West Virginia and started a food revolution in elementary and high school there, just like what he did in London.

In my humble opinion, Jamie is one of celebrities that I really like to meet and talk in person. Ever since Asian Food Channel on ASTRO 703, I watched his shows, right from he started his career as celebrity chef till now, this show.

Again Mr. Jamie.. I give you a 100% support.

Happy Day

Before I start with this happy post, I want to say something about myself. Oh yeah. :P

I’ve been sick day in, day out. From fever to flu to running nose to flu to fever to flu to fever to flu to fever and now I have fever and headache. Adus! I want to go to class but if I went to class and then sleep the whole way, or keep going out from class to clear my runny nose, what’s the point of that? It’s not that I’m lazy.. yeah.. a bit lazy la but I really want to set my mind straight on study and graduating at the end of the semester.

I wanted to apologize to all members of Azurite team for not going to two field trips already due to my stupid weakness of immune system. If I could make it up to you guys, I will. Like seriously I will.

Okay.. Enough of that.. Back to the main point.

 

Last Friday was the happiest day for me to be visited by my primary school classmate, after 10 years not seeing each other. I seriously miss her and very delighted to meet her, even though for only 6 hours.

I was supposed to meet with her on Thursday, but when I messaged her on Wednesday night, she told me that she’s just arriving Miri. I was like really happy but kalut because I don’t have any transport and it was like around 8.00pm. If you don’t believe me ask Chendol, Hafis or Nan. Haha!

She mentioned that she’ll be going to Bintulu the next day, and will stay Miri for a night the next. So I have more time to prepare for everything. I asked Jay for her ride but she cannot confirm until that Friday morning. Luckily, I have my backup plan and ask for Hafis’ ride instead.

Hafis agreed to bring me to her. Cewah.. Haha!

On Friday evening, Aswad, Hafis and I went to Park Hotel and fetch her and her friends. When I saw her the first time again, I was really delighted. She never change one bit, physically and mentally. :) Funny though, she still sort of short but still cute. LOL I used to have a crush on her back when I was in Primary 6.

First, we went to Esplanade. Both of her friends are Sabahan; one from Lahad Datu and another from Tawau. They were very quiet, so only me and her talking the whole time. Aswad and Hafis just chatted with each other. They wanted to chat with those two friends but because they were quiet, they only chatted with each other. Hehe..

Me and her watched the sunset together, while swapping stories of our life. When we were enjoying limited time sunrise coz we arrived at Esplanade around after 6.00pm, two of her friends asked me where is the nearest prayer room available. ALAMAK! While she was chatting with them, I called Hafis and asked the whereabouts of the prayer room, and after that settled, me and her turned around to continue watching the sunset when both of us said exactly the same thing.. “ALA… MATAHARI DAH HILANG..” We stared at each other and laughed out loud a.k.a. LOL..

I think maybe both of her friends were shy coz when we planned to have dinner, they asked us to drop them off at their hotel. So yeah, only she tagged along with us.

We planned to eat at Najua coz that’s the place that was on my mind that day. While waiting for my gang members to arrive (LOL gang members, i don’t know how to group them all and what name should I gave them), we took a detour to Boulevard for a while coz Aswad wanted to repair his broken glasses. Since we had a lot of time, we went around the shopping mall and again, still swapping stories. Hehe.. Lama bha 10 tahun x jumpa.. Macam2 boleh cerita.. :P

Then, off we went to Najua. We waited for them anyway.. Cipet tol.. Then came Nadea and Mea, then come Jay, Koja, and Ammar. I ate bakso while she ordered kuey tiaw goreng hong kong. Kesian dia tak dapat makan banyak sebab pedas.. Apa ni org Melaka.. She mentioned that pedas like this tak boleh but masak lemak cili api boleh makan sampai licin.. Apa daa.. Buat2 manja kot.. Hihihi.. Anyway, she didn’t eat much.. I pity her.. Macam x luak je makan tu.. I paid for her dinner anyway.

After dinner, we went to Canada Hill for a while. Just sightseeing. Ramai gila orang kat atas tuh.. So we just lepak in the car and then off from there to send her back to her hotel. And that’s the end of the day.

End for all of us but not for us coz we messaged each other the whole night.. LOL.. See, she missed me too.. Only too shy to say.. Hehehe.. :D

Here, I would like to apologize to her for any wrongdoings, or making her feel bad, or for any lack of consideration that I gave to her before back when I was in primary school. I know, I was quite a bad kid when I was little, but you also see that I am already changed. You said so yourself. Hehe.. :)

Thanks to Aswad and Hafis as well coz sudi temankan me to bring her out.. Without you guys especially Hafis, I’m not sure whether I’ll get to see her. And thanks to you to Nazira coz sudi keluar dgn I.. Hehehe.. :) I promise I’ll come and visit you in KK next time! :)

p/s: Sorry la no picture, coz both of us forgot to bring our own cameras.. LOL..

Holy Moly.

 

 

HOLY SHIT I’m coughing blood!

*lie down*

 

;(

An Update

Yes.. It is just an update.. Nothing more nothing less.

This blog had been in hiatus for quite some time now.

Somehow, I don’t know what to blog anymore.

Maybe my life isn’t as colourful and beautiful as before.

Or I’m being a little more secretive about my life, like I used to be before.

My friend from primary school is coming to Miri today, from her university, and will be expected to arrive on Thursday from Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. Night or day, I’m not sure but she’ll be here I’m sure.

It’s just been a long time since I met her again. Almost 10 years to be exact. TEN YEARS~ Fuh.. That’s really a long time. She’ll be here on Thursday and Saturday as well.

Before this, I’ve heard that our field trip will be held at KK. I was really happy that I told her that I will come and meet her there. But sadly the plan did not materialise.

Somehow, last month she told me that she’ll be going to Bintulu for her study project and will be stopping at Miri.. I was really happy and still, am happy.. I really look forward on meeting her..

I just can’t wait.. I’ll be bringing her around Miri. Heh.. I hope she’ll be delighted to meet me soon. :)

:) :) :)

The First Week

Fuh.. fuh.. fuh..

Oh.. Hello guys and gals..

Fuhh…

*deep breath*

Okay.. Officially, the first week of study is over.. I can’t believe that we, the third year geology students only have one class per day.. except Wednesday and Friday; the former has two classes and the latter has NO CLASS AT ALL!! Walaoweyh~

But a bit sad la when most of the classes start at 5.30 and end around 7 to 7.30 p.m. Bila aku hari2 bangun pukul 7, time ni la pulak kelas start petang.. –.-‘’ Tidak patut sungguh..

Anyway.. although we have only that much of a class, we have a big project for the whole semester.. both the academic and sports.. Now I know what it feels like to have a power as a Vice President.. Punya lah banyak benda mau difikirkan..

I’ve been going for sports at night for three days straight now.. Mula2, main volleyball and pingpong and futsal.. then main basketball… and just now, main badminton pulak.. To summarize, it was all AWESOMELY FANTASTIC!! Seronok dapat bersukan dgn member2.. Bukan selalu dapat peluang camnih.. :)

Now, my left hand still sore.. Kebas tangan kiri asek hayun raket je.. Main tak berenti2.. Hehe..

2moro, I’ll be having a field trip with my group-mates… I hope I can be more serious, hardworking, supportive, attentive etc.. for the benefit of me and my teammates.. Buat kerja lain semangat.. buat kerja yang serious, lain pulak cerita nya.. =.=’’

Oh.. dah ngantuk.. Bye~ ^_^

Yippie Doo Da!

I just installed Windows 7 replacing my XP a few days ago..

And for now, I think it’s going great for my old laptop. And I sudah terdelete most of my draft post in here. So, this is the fresh new one.

I just finished install the windows live writer and this is my first post..

Haah.. The class will start on Monday and I already got a lot in my hands right now. Class schedule, Curtin Rugby Club events and etc.

Just got back from dinner actually.. I slept the whole day today. Very the mengantuk punya..

Haha.

Now cannot sleep  >_<’’

Really need to set my biological clock back to going-to-class-hope-not-skipping-any mode..

Fuh. That’s all now..

*Glup glup glup*

I am back!

Hola mamasitas. Como es tas?

As you probably knew, I was back in Miri. And yes I am! I’m in Miri now! I was so excited. After leaving this god-forsaken place for 2 months, suddenly I missed being here.

Sedut was supposed to fetch me from the airport but to my shocked, they were going on a holiday in KK.. and by they, I mean Abu, Tompok, Fuad and him.

But, good things come out from this loneliness. I got a hotel room for my own comfort! Hell yeah.. I didn’t stutter.. I got a hotel room for myself! And plus… FOR FREEEEE!!!! I OWNED THESE BITCHES! Muahaha.. Pardon my french..

Since, they will only going to come back to Miri on Tuesday, which is later today, I still living alone, for two days now, in a nice hotel with swimming pool and gym. See how spoilt I am? :P

And after a minute Jengga stepping inside his own house, he kept bitching about it in his twitters. Haha!

Meanwhile, you guys may seem to have this idea of me leaving Jengga alone in his own house. Well, I tried to invite him to stay with me for a night or two in this some sort of ‘heavenly’ crib but he planned to stay there anyway, being cuddled with lizards, cockroaches, tonnes of boxes and WITH NO INTERNET CONNECTION! How suck his life right now, I cannot ever imagine. Can you ever imagine life of Jengga without his internet connection? It’s like having a babysitter, with no baby to babysit. It is just ri…di..cu..lous..

Of course, being me with such a delicious sarcasm and annoying sense of humour, I kept tormenting him with messages, saying I was going to the swimming pool, I went to the supermarket, I got internet connection, I have a better place to stay than him, all kind of annoying messages that are really…annoying…

But hey, he said he needed to study and with no internet connection and living in that remote area, I pretty sure that he passes his supplementary exam. Hee.. Now come to think of it, it’s good leaving him to go back to his own place. :P

Me? I have my own jolly good time.. Internet is fast enough to watch all the series I want, watching football on ESPN.. It’s allll… goooooooood..

I’ve been on Castle marathon and watched some movies from my laptop, only God knows how much time I already wasted living like this. Heh.. If only I know what valuable thing that I can do to kill this awful long time. Still, no mood for studying yet. I just hoped that I can turn myself back on for studying mode. Not that I have study mode to turn back on nowadays.

I love living by myself and sometimes it’s good too when you have somebody to goof around with, keep me updated with stuff.

Living in this hotel, alone by myself really help me observe things from afar. And one thing I know for sure. Miri citizen really knows how to celebrate during the festive season! Give it up to MIRI………….PEOPLLLEEEEEEE!! They really having their own good times, closing almost all stores in around town, for quite a long time too.. 3 days, 4 days.. and some even for  a week! How cool is that? Do they really make that lots of money they can close the store for a week?

I’ve been roaming around the Boulevard hypermarket inside the Imperial, and all I can see are tigers, red banners, chinese writings, some stupid arcs they put everywhere, the lion dance’s head.. all sorts of festive stuff.. It’s really cool and shyte, but why do you have to put all the same stuff at the same spot all around the mall?!

Errh.. I’m hungry now.. Gonna cook something up for myself!

Till then,

Hasta la vista, ebelibadi!

And before I forget..

GONG XI FA CAI

AND

HAVE A GREAT SHORT HOLIDAY!

*tongtorong toceng.. tongtorong toceng… toceng.. toceng.. toceng…*

(and yes, if you’re dirty, you know what it means.. but in case you are not, it’s a chinese ambience you’ll hear every time there’s a lion dance.. hehe.)

An Unpretentious Requisition

It’s just plain hard to live and still depends on something or someone.

I am a really active guy, who loves adventurous, extreme and sometimes dangerous stuff.

I am the kind of guy who takes thing to an outrageous level.

I love challenge. Challenge keeps me alive.

However, I know that someday I can’t be as active as before.

But until that time comes, I really want to enjoy my life to the fullest. 

And time will come where I will need full support from all of you. 

Until then, please don’t babysit me, keep asking me whether “I’m okay” every step of the way. 

I know that I should be grateful having you guys in my life, taking care of me. 

And sometime it is just too much.

So please, let me be. Let me enjoy my life.

But I promise you,  

I will taking care of my own health. 

I won’t put my own condition at risk. 

I won’t do stuff that I know will harm me. 

Pray for my safety though.  

Fin

Life As A Guitarist.

Hurmm.. Where will I start this post.. cos it happened long time ago.. blamed myself for procrastinate..

Oh.. During exam week, I sorta borrowed a guitar from a friend since dia x main that guitar.. When I got this guitar, I was really really happy cos ye la.. lebey kurg my first guitar that I SORT OF ‘owned’.. ;p but I realized the first moment i held this guitar… the first string gone! T_T

How the hell am I going to practice if the 1st string hilang.. but because of the passion *cewah* towards music and guitar.. I took the guitar nonetheless.. right after I got home.. baru nak belai2 the guitar.. suddenly one of the gears tercabut.. waaa… the screw already gone to God-knows-where n I dont have any thing to stick it back in.. So for a few days until the end of the exam.. I didn’t use the guitar at all coz I used syabil’s guitar. Mmg terabai dat guitar but I’m sure the guitar dah biasa dah.. mcm kat rumah dulu-dulu.. *kuikuikui ;p*

So, I’ve put repairing the guitar as my top priorities after the exam coz after exam, there’s nothing that can be done in miri except for makan, tido, and main game.. lol..

However, I didn’t start repairing the guitar right after exam coz I’ve been really lazy to go to Imperial to buy the stuff. This laziness continued until the beach touch rugby tournament where I was planning to stay at the hotel. Even though penat giler, the mission still go on.. lol.. buying all the stuff at the music store which I forgot the name.. Apparently.. the store xde skru that match the gear and I ended up buying the strings and the whole tuning keys.

After I bought the whole stuff, we went to eat at McDonald with Tompoq, Chong, Sedut and a couple of new frens which are frens of Sedut and Tompoq.. if I can still recall, they’re Ijoi and err…. errr…. tak ingat.. huhuhu.. (after 2 months of delaying this post…) Oh yes!! Boyan! :D

So.. I explained to yu how to repair a guitar.. err.. sort of.. ^_^

INFO: To know more about the guitar parts and components, click here.

1. Pull out old strings

In case you didn’t notice, this is the most crucial part. You want to know why?

Coz if you don’t pull out the old strings, how can you put a new one? LOL..

The beginning of guitar-repairing madness (I already started pulling out one string before I realized that I want to blog bout it.. :P)

When you pull out the strings, do it very slowly as it may cut your fingers. Like seriously, pedih weh!

DON’T THROW THE STRINGS AWAY! Keep it somewhere, in case of emergency. Mana la tau after this one string putus and you really need it quick, you can use the old string.. Clever kan? :P

2. Clean the exterior (optional)

Yes ladies and gentlemen, please remove all the dust from your guitar.

Sometimes you eat fried chicken while you playing guitar, don’t ask me how but the oily hands will make your guitar less pretty. And if your guitar has been devoured alive by the very dusty environment (like this guitar for instance), find a clean or old cloth and wipe the dust off.

Uggh.. Filthy.. (Before)

If you are really particular about cleanliness and want to polish it with some kind of polishing product on the market so that it will be shinier and looks glossy, go ahead. It’s your guitar, your choice.. :)

Ooh.. Its cleaner and shinier look (After)

*ignore the surrounding.. please focus on the guitar*

But if your guitar is already clean and got no stain or nasty fingerprints, you can skip this part and move on to the third step.

3. Check for repairing kit

Since I will replace the old tuning keys on the headstock and the six strings this is what you need:

• New tuning keys
• Screwdriver
• Six strings
• and willingness to replace and repair :P

Alice professional guitar strings :P

I don’t know much about which guitar strings you should buy coz different types of guitar uses different strings. Ask the taukeh at the shop because that was what I did.. Hehe..

4. Replace the tuning keys

Use your screwdriver, and remove all the screws that hold the old tuning keys.

Remove the tuning keys and just replace it. Easy. Kacang.

Make sure you bought the tuning keys that fit with your guitar though. :P

5. Fit in the six strings

Put in your first string. If you did not know which one is the first string, it is the thinnest one that is placed at the bottom of the line, if you are a right-handed guitarist.

To guide you in order to put the correct strings into the correct tuning keys at the headstock, look at the picture below.

See? The first string goes to the bottom right tuning key.

2nd string – middle right

3rd string – top right

4th string – top left

5th string – middle left

6th string – bottom left

As a rule of thumb, when you put all your strings into the tuning keys, make sure that you turned the tuner in the same direction when you want to tune it. (i.e. loosen strings – all clockwise direction, tighten strings – all counterclockwise direction).

They are two ways of inserting the guitar strings into the tuning keys.

1. Pull all the strings into the keys and turn the gears

2. Put just the end of the string and turn the gears.

Both ways have their pros and cons.

a. Not wasting time, easier to tune because you only have to turn the gear a bit but waste of strings.

b. Wasting time, because you start to turn the gear from the tip of the string, harder to tune but more accurate.

Click the picture if you cannot see the label :P

6. Tune the guitar and rock on!

You can use tuner to tune your guitar or if you are a more-experienced guitarists, use your own method or method that have been descended by your guitar gurus.

Repaired and new-looking guitar.. weehuu~

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I so wanna buy a guitar right now.

I don’t know whether this is useful for you guys or you have a better way of repairing your own guitar. This is my method that has been shared and taught by my friend and it’s really useful for me.

Tuan gitar, ampun kerana mengutuk gitar anda but I just can’t help it.. Muahaha :P

If you have any questions, or better solution, feel free to drop a comment or two :P

Before we end, who want to learn Tears in Heaven? Angkat tangan! :P

And lastly to all guitarists out there no matter where you are, tgh jamming ke, atas pentas ke, tepi longkang melayan syahdu ke, atas katil ke…

KEEP ON ROCKING, BEBEH!! Woohoo!!

\m/

Speak of The Truth

BEWARE: NOT FOR THE FAINT-HEARTED AND DO NOT WANT TO BE IN THE MIDDLE OF THIS.

“Life is built from pieces of memories combined into a whole that tells you of who you are in the past and present and what you will be in the future”

There’s always a storybook which ends with ‘happily ever after’ and yet I’ve never find such ending.

Well, this is not a story, neither it’s a speak of desperation. It is what comes through my mind right about now and few weeks before this and I think I need to speak up since it really gives me a heavy burden.

I don’t expect you to agree, neither expect you to tell the same story to others. I just want you to understand. It’s just my opinion, you might have different perspective but to each their own.

I wanted and tried to talk to you about this in person but you’ve mentioned that you don’t like to talk about any of this face to face since it will make you feel really uncomfortable. I understand that completely. It may turn things for the worse and I really don’t want that. So, if I talk to yu, I will say exactly the same thing here.

In case you hadn’t notice which I think you are, I still adore you. I still like you like I did when we really close together before. And I don’t think I’ll ever stop liking you.

I can’t seem quite to get you out of my head everyday. I don’t know why. Every time I feel like you did something not nice to me, I really want to put angry words and say bad things about you in my heart but I just unable to do that. Someone told me “I loved too much” but heck no. I don’t think I ever encounter love before. Bryan Adams once said (not really say coz it’s more in his lyrics); you will know that you really love a woman

“When you find yourself lying helpless in her arms”

“When you can see your unborn children in her eyes”

I know that it’s only a metaphor but I never ever feel like that or even close to that metaphor.

You bring out the best in me. I’m such a dull and boring person before and I’m not friendly with people, even our batch-mate and I don’t think I’ll ever be close to them if not because of you. I learnt how to socialize because I envy you. You have such good friends by your side and I also wanted to feel the same way you do, being loved not just from your family but also your friends.

Sometimes just being with you really made my day. Your smile, your childish act, your cute gesture and jumping like a hyper-active kid with endless supply of sugar, your chuckles when I made a fool out of myself. Your story also made me wanted to know more about you, like I want to know the whole of you, coz I know that someday things will change and I won’t get chance like this anymore, although I hope it didn’t change at all.

It’s funny how our relationship grew based predominately on making jokes and laughed about other peoples’ misery and annoyances. Gosh.. I really missed those times. We sometime talked about ourselves, our interests but mostly we talked about other people.

Our relationship really blossomed when we didn’t sleep for the whole night talking about random stuff, about yu, about me, about everything. That time, I felt like we were meant to be, although I know that’s sound so corny. With the paparazzi lagi.. Haha macam famous celebs la pulak rasanya.. :P

I know you are not really can remember everything that we did, and that’s where I came in, to fill your so-called flaw. :) although sometimes it’s just a little thing and I recalled the memory to you, and you don’t remember, it’s kinda make me want to strangle you (in a good way). But I cherished every moment because, I don’t know, it’s my curse really, to be able to remember all those things.. >_<

We really pissed people off especially Shannon, Abby, Mea and Putri for the stupid things we did around 10 months ago (approximately). We are labeled as people who didn’t appreciate relationships. Haha!

Yes, sometimes I can be such an annoying person to you, but it’s just who I am. I annoyed you before and still annoy you now. Only the difference is because you don’t know me well before and now you seem to know me well enough.

And then came two incidents that I think change the course of our relationship. The “thank you for everything” and “where’s my handout, I want to staple it all together” incidents. You really scared the shit out of me. Fuhh.. I don’t want to elaborate on that, I still keep what we chatted though. It really was the first time I was really scared that our friendship will end just like that.

Heh.. Yeah, I regretted that I always took things too far and made you mad at me over little things and you know I don’t really mean that. Comparing me with your shitty ex-bf really made me sad. Coz I don’t want to be label as that in your life at all but I didn’t realize that it turned out that way. I wanted to be at least the better thing that ever happened in your life, if not the best. Am I one of them? Only you can decide.

When we were just getting to know each other, I made three promises to myself when I share any moments with you, difficult times or the fun ones.

1. That I will always make your day, try to lift your spirits up and always support you even when you are feeling down.
2. I will help you in any way I can, and even for the littlest things.
3. I will never make you cry.

I am really happy about the birthday surprise to you coz I think that’s the only plan that was really a successful one. And you even not expecting it. It really made both of our day.

I know that you are not a child anymore, and don’t want help all the time. You want to live independently. I agreed and happy to be next to a girl and that don’t need support and helpless all the time. But sometimes macam kesian la pulak tgk yu like struggling eventho you mentioned you don’t want my help.

When you cried in front of me, I know that I took things too far. I’ve made a terrible mistake to you and also broke my own promises to myself. I really feel like an idiot at that time. I know that you just had a tough time arguing with someone and then I acted like a moron after that. When you suddenly said, “Aku balik la kalau camni” and then you started to sob, it’s like a stab to my heart. I hate woman’s crying in front of me and lagi-lagi because of me.

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Although I know that I really am not good with words, I just want to apologize, from the bottom or my heart, not only for this incident but for all the wrong doings that I did to hurt you and yes, sometime I meant what I did but I did all of these because I wanted to keep our relationship strong in my sense.

I admit that sometimes I can be really selfish, ignorant, arrogant and etc. but I still improving myself in becoming a better human being, a real man not just to you, but to everyone.

I really don’t expect you to change, let alone for me coz that will be an idiot thing to do. Yes, people change everyday, for better or for worse.

And I admit, it’s a real pain to let you go, but I have coz I don’t want to carry the burden of pain, anger to myself and despair all the way until the end of my university life.

I know that you have changed. It is obvious and I saw the change when we were really close. You are not who you was before and really, it is fine by me.

What I want is just a second valuable chance for me to prove that I am worth to have a close friend like you. And I know that this is too much to ask.

A friend once said to me,

“No bf/gf like their gf/bf close to another person of the opposite sex”

Come to think of it, it is partly true in, some sort of understanding. If you really delve into your personal love life, I think you can find this statement is true, in the short-term or long-term run of the relationship. I’ve experienced it before and yeah, who says I won’t experience it again.. Heh..

Although this post will again, may cause another major change in my life and our relationship as friend, I am willing to take that chance coz sooner or later, I am just gonna let this thing out..

“Anyhow, we surely had fun while it lasts…. =)”

Whitewater Rafting Adventure

After about 2 weeks of thinking, I decided to just go for it. Hehe.. Bila lagi mau enjoy sama kawan2 kan?

This is my first ever trip at West Malaysia that I went with my university buddies.

One week prior to the trip, I actually still hesitating whether I want to join or not but after TC mentioned in Facebook that we need to pay the deposit, I must make up my mind since there’s no turning back. I paid anyway. Hehe.. :)

Next question, since the bus will be departed at 8.30 am in Puduraya, where will I stay for the night before the trip? I won’t put myself in a rush and frustrate myself to take the earliest bus from Melaka all the way to Pudu and then to Perak. No no no…

So, I put status on my Facebook asking for a place to stay and no one reply.. =( What to do.. So, since I don’t know their exact location, I started to ask around. Ask Arep, Mao (didn’t reply) and Koyot (didn’t reply on Facebook). I have to thank TC for this coz she managed to call Koyot and asked for me. So there, I got a place to stay. Hehe..

Since this is my first time travel to Bangi, I asked very detail questions about how to go around from Melaka all the way to Bangi. Haha.. I don’t want to get confused coz I really suck at keeping my direction and end up stuck and sleeping at Puduraya instead.. LOL..

Koyot told me to stop whether at Hentian Bas Kajang or UKM KTM Station. I asked my dad about it and he gave me suggestion to go to Pudu and then back to Kajang, which is not to my liking since it’s jumping bus.. I hate jumping from bus to bus which I don’t know why.. However, I got a really nice plan that is to go to Seremban, catch a commuter to UKM.. Sambil2 tu boleh la hang out dgn budak2 Seremban dulu.. Hehe..

24/01/2010

Off I went to Seremban by bus, leaving at 1.30pm.

Kept messaging Seqam about where should I meet him. He kept giving me confusing directions. End up staying at the Terminal 2 waiting for him to pick me up.

Seqam drove me around city of Seremban, although I’ve been there a couple of times, he drove me like I’ve never been there before, showing me places.. HAHA!

Ate at A&W near to Seremban Parade and met Komeng there. We hung out until 5.00pm and then off I went to the KTM Seremban.

My very noob moments started here.. at the KTM..

This was my very first time taking a commuter. So, bear with me. I was really nervous and there were a lot of people.

I reached the counter and mentioned UKM as my destination and since this is my first time, I asked the lady at the counter which train should I hop on.

With a cynical smile, she said, “In your opinion, which train should you take?”

I backed out a bit and then I saw the board. There’s only two trains; destination: RAWANG and SINGAPORE.

=.=

I felt really hopeless and soulless..

The rail and the surrounding really blend together and the composition of colour is really cool. If only I can take better picture of this.

A lot of hot chicks around me but I don’t dare taking any picture.. LOL

Anyway, I arrived in UKM around 6.30pm and Koyot drove me to his house. Besar weh rumah dia.. Hoho.. Jakun first time datang.. His mom served me with karipap..

Contacted Mao and he drove over his dad’s Naza Ria together with Kerol and Ammar. Before masuk kereta, I told the story about my noob moment and they laughed.. they laughed hard.. T_T

Around 9.00pm, out from Koyot’s house and went to Warta (kot) in Bangi. Ate dinner in Rasamas, Koyot’s treat.

Next hang out at the Big Glass, near Koyot’s house, watching FA Cup Stoke vs. Arsenal where Mao gave out an idea to stay at his house since it’s easier to reach Pudu than rushing to take the first commuter at UKM. (I think in Mao’s head he already made his decision to come with us when he offered us a place to stay but keep asking us whether he want to join or not. =.=)

Big weh the glass. No wonder Big Glass. And someone so idiotic (^^) suggesting that the price is just RM2.50 which is actually RM5.00.

Around 12.30am, back to Koyot’s house, took our items and out we went, sending Ammar at Kajang and Kerol at Balakong.

Then, Mao drove me around and we went to Taman Bukit Permai. The view of Kuala Lumpur is just magnificent.. WITH NO FOG!!

 

Ooh.. My butt!

Around 2.30am we arrived at Mao’s house. His family already sleeping and we outside made quite a noise.

Cannot sleep because we shared the bed. I never have a good sleep for about a week anyway so I kept waking up and checked the clock.

25/01/2010

(I know. According to me, the day started at 6.00am; my blog, my rule ^^)

Mao’s little brother woke us up at 6.30am and we took a bath and had bakso for breakfast!

Koyot and I didn’t dare to take the spicy stuff since both of us has stomach ache that morning.

Mao’s dad took us to STAR LRT Station and we went straight to Plaza Rakyat. Met Syepah there. Walked to Puduraya.

Met with the others and hung out while waiting for the bus.

8.30am-ish – Yahoo! Started our journey to Perak. There’s only us in the bus, slept most of the time.

Nearly 11.30pm, we arrived at Medan Gopeng, Perak. I saw a crocodile in the drain but I was the only one that saw it, so I can’t share the fun with anyone. =(

Shahul from Penang already waiting for us there and 10 minutes later, the agents of the rafting group arrived. Introduced themselves as Amy, Sherry (I think so and he’s a guy) and Pakcik TC which I also forgot his name.

They drove us straight to the caving site, for cave exploration. Gua Kandu is the name of the cave.

 

 

 Cilaka sibat kata aku macam Teletubbies –.-‘’

After we were soaked with our own sweat, next activity: WHITEWATER RAFTING YO!!

Before we did just that, we stopped for a while at Rumah Rehat Adeline, for girls to change into more proper attire, not the i-want-to-go-shopping-complex-kinda-attire-with-crocs-summore if yu know what I mean. LOL

 

We were given a crash course on how to survive in the raft (not exactly a raft, more like a boat). How to handle the paddle and all, how to wear the safety vest properly, what we should and shouldn’t do in the boat. We were so excited! Haha!

 See Wani behind Kim? She wore the vest but realize that the vest is too big for her. LOL. She got to wear the ‘budak kecik’ size.

 Yeah.. Listening to the instructors.

Yeah.. Enough said.. Picture time.. Go ahead and indulge. And get jealous!

(More pictures are in Wani’s, Kim’s, TC’s, Amy’s and my Facebook)

We enjoyed to the max. Period. We were rafting around 13km along Sg. Kampar and the adventure ended after 2 hours of forward paddle, back-paddling, hold on to the Oh Shit (OS) line, boom-boom, shake the boat and intentionally capsized the boat. Oh.. and saving Yana’s CROCS.

Sampai je to our destination, we were out from the bloody cold water and terus makan! But that time, I don’t have the urge to makan banyak. I’ve lost my appetite and only managed to eat a little of the fried noodle. We ate at the gazebo and waited for our accommodation. I forgot what happened at that time coz my mind was on something else.

 Our place to stay. Girls got their own place. Looks like a big chicken coop. LOL

So that night, ada sorang pakcik ni offer us all to join them for dinner. Kampung-style! Woo! It’s been too long since I’ve ever tasted masakan kampung.

8.30pm – We rode the two cars and headed to the pakcik’s house. (Sorry la, on that day, semua nama orang I lupak. Hehe..)

The food are all ready. They’re only waiting for us to eat.. Ada macam2 weh.. Ikan bakar, sambal petai dengan ikan bilis, labu masak lemak kuning, tempoyak ikan bilis, ulam-ulaman, ikan masak kicap, asam pedas, and for our dessert, bubur pulut hitam. Slurrp.. Come on.. indulge.. :)

 

After eating, there’s nothing else worth mentioning here.. I didn’t get much sleep, I woke up and then hung out with the instructor, played ping-pong with them and back to the room at 4.00am, still kenot sleep, just staring blankly at the ceiling. LOL.. So yeah, moved on to the next day..

26/01/2010

I got out from the room around 8.00am, just walking around the chalet area, enjoying the cool breeze and then lepak again with the instructors.. He mentioned that we’ll be going to the waterfall around 10.00am.

I just jalan2 bodoh je until around 9.00am, before Kim ajak me to join her play ping-pong.

10.00am-ish.. Off we go to the waterfall. It’s Ulu Geruntum waterfall. The view was just magnificent.

  Ada macam 90210 punya DVD cover tak? ^_^

The current is really strong.. At the place where the guys were there, it felt like a thousand bricks falling on you. But it’s really cold and fun, so we don’t mind all that. Hehehe..

They went for breakfast, supplied by the pakcik yg offered us dinner yesterday. I only have drinks. Again, coz I really don’t feel like eating.

We moved out from there around 1.30pm, went back to our chalet, picked our things and the whitewater rafting adventure was officially done!

We arrived at Medan Gopeng around 2.15pm and straight bought the ticket back to Kuala Lumpur and the bus will depart at 2.30pm. We rushed to the bus and off we went back to KL.

 Kalau like this also sejuk lagi, I don’t know what to say dah.. Hehe..

Around 6 we arrived at the station, grabbed our light dinner before we all went our own direction; Syepah and Wani to Gombak, me to Melaka etc. (I forgot how the rest got home. LOL)

Catching bus to Melaka at 7.00pm, slept almost the whole journey and feel a bit gloomy coz the adventure is finally ended.

But I really have fun with you guys, hope we can organize something like this again. Although my leg macam ini, I still want to enjoy like you guys. LOL..

Thank you to TC and the rest for the lovely pictures and also for lovely companions.

“An adventure full of joy, laughter, pain and a lot of experiences gained.”

=)